5-18-22

Hi, I know it’s been a good while since I posted anything online, really. Dunno if anyone’s going to read this through and through, but I think it’s time to break the silence.

The reason why I haven’t posted much here, has to do with life. There were several events that happened last year that kind of mentally strained me. I went through a very difficult college class that kinda destroyed my sanity for a while, I ended up getting appendicitis over last Summer’s break, and I had to go to the hospital for surgery on that area, I caught COVID-19 before Winter Break after finishing my Fall semester when my sister caught it from school, my old computer completely gave up, so we had to go out and get a new computer, and I had to manually take out the hard drive from my old computer to transfer the files through an external I bought to transfer over to the new computer. And now, currently there’s been a health emergency with my mom that we’ve been taking care of, hoping she pulls through.

And then, I’ve been kind of burnt out from social media and the internet as a whole, as it’s been getting harder and harder to keep up with everything and post consistently while balancing the work from college, and just life in general. Plus, the whole talk about NFTs and stuff online had been getting on my nerves, and it’s been stressing me out. I don't want to go any further on that topic though. So, I kinda decided to just take a lowkey break. I didn’t really announce it though, I didn’t want to be the guy that went, “hey im gonna take a break from social media byyyyyye” and then come back a week later to jump back into posting whatever small doodle I spat onto my sketchbook, not fully recovered. However, I probably should’ve said something first before I went blank for several months, probably a bit irresponsible on my part, and I apologize, I was just tired, and I just couldn’t bring myself to post a status update at that moment. Especially just hot off of making a new years’ post and being like "OOH HOPEFULLY I'LL DO SOMETHING THIS YEAR!!". 

In addition, I wasn't feeling as confident about my animation/art skills as I used to be, prior to taking the break, so I was kind of having a bit of an identity crisis.

Also, regarding Nutty, the squirrel cartoon I was working on for a long time? Not sure if anyone was still keeping up with that project, and I didn’t really want to say anything, but during the 2020’s, I had to quietly, indefinitely postpone the project, because I’ve been tied up with college, and I was a bit depressed during the first couple of years during lockdown. The movement towards online classes didn’t help either. Not to sound melodramatic or anything, but I felt trapped, isolated, almost no one to talk to with how distant classes are right now. I’m sure NOBODY planned for us all to completely move towards stay-at-home activities amidst the COVID-19 virus, but I think it affected me the most, personally, especially since I was just starting with my first couple of years at college, and kinda missed out on that social aspect of it, and then suddenly I have to adjust to this completely new format that I wasn't used to. I still want to work on it again, though. I just don’t want to make it overly public with premature trailers and announcements as I’ve done in the past, I just want to go at my own pace when working on it. So I assure you, it’s not totally canceled.

But anyways, that’s pretty much what’s been going on while I was away, just wanted to let off some steam and heavy baggage here.

Sorry if I got a bit personal there, these COVID times are pretty rough, but I’m okay.

I did just finish an animation class this semester for college, but I kinda want to polish them up before I post my work. I also finished this little Flipnote animation that I spent a few months working on as a small side thing, if you want, you can check it out here:

https://www.sudomemo.net/watch/BF6236_14ED2AEDD32B3_003

But yeah, that's about it for now. 'til next time, peace.

-JPiXeL